Something Needs to Change

And it needs to happen fast!  On my walk to gym, I started to think about my battle with the scale and how it's consumed me.  I think about weight loss a LOT yet it doesn't seem to affect the way that I eat enough for me to lose weight.  There's a disconnect somewhere and I've decided that maybe it's my approach that's off.  I think I might change my goals in this process.  I really and truly want to lose the 75 pounds.  There are no questions about that.  I think I would feel better, I feel like I would be more confident and I feel like shopping for clothes would no longer be a chore but be exciting.  I'm a size16 and when you can't fit the 16 in the store, it's not like you can go up a size.  Some stores don't even carry 16's.  If I was a size 8 or 10, I could easily go up a size, or two even, if there was a discrepancy between sizes and stores!

But what I'm doing isn't working.  I've been working out more often.  I'm letting go of my tight grip on candy (although not always successfully).  I'm drinking more water.  I'm trying.  I need to go back to food journaling and worry about being healthy.  At this rate, it is NOT working out and the few pounds I have shed, seemed to have crept up on me when I started to get lax with my behavior.

I worked my tush off at the gym today and I'm going to the grocery store today too to get more veggies and less carbs.  I don't think I'm even going to buy bread.

Is 75 pounds still my goal?  Yeah sure it is!  But I'm not going to put a years time on it to happen.  I think I'm going to make 52 pounds my goal.  HEALTHY weight loss at a pound a week and the extra can come off later.  I won't beat myself up either if for some reason I don't get a pound off one week.  I tend to be my own worse enemy when it comes to guilt.  Also I'm starting over with the weight loss.  I'm tired of my rinky-dink scale so I'm buying a new one today and I will re-weigh myself tomorrow morning with maybe even a new starting weight.

This is a journey that is taking a lot more motivation this time around for some reason.  I have to keep trying though. 

Good luck to anyone else that's working on their weight loss endeavors!

Elizabeth