Not So Hot!

When I started this whole journey, I was so optimistic!  But I must say that by doing this, I have recognized serious flaws in my eating habits!  I can be doing WONDERFULLY until I get home from work and then borderline binge afterwards.  Or like I did today, I splurged on a caloric dessert and ate too much of it.  Yes I understand the question that must follow: If you know you're that tempted, why buy the foods that give you so many problems?  If I knew the answer to that question, I wouldn't be working on this blog right now.  My weight would NOT be an issue.  I would be 140 pounds let alone 145!  It's an impulse.  I buy it because I want it with little thought of how I'll feel after.  All I can think about is how much I'm going to enjoy eating whatever it is I purchased.

Ya know, I was candy sober for 9 months because I realized that I had no control over my candy eating habits.  That was a BIG deal.  I mean BIG.  I was a candy addict.  I went at LEAST 4 times a week to Walgreens to find a treat for myself.  There were times where I felt like the workers there knew me.  Maybe not my name, but definitely my face!

What should I do?  Maybe I should save treats for parties or special events and just cut them out completely from my everyday, run of the mill day.  Yeah I know I said you can eat anything you want in moderation, and I still stand by that, but I personally cannot.  I can't do sweets in moderation.  That just doesn't work.  I need to give them up all together.  I didn't want it to come to this but after figuring out my weak points each day, it always ends up with me overdoing sweets and/or desserts.

I'm proclaiming it now: This is the last day I'm going to eat desserts/candy unless I'm at somebody's birthday or Christmas party.  Weird that I threw in the birthday party and Christmas parties, but I just don't want to be the weird one that refuses a slice of cake at a birthday party or passes on the pie at Christmas.  It's Christmas for Pete's sake!

Done.

We'll see how this works :D

Elizabeth